Word- Happen

Things happen in life you may not want. You do things you regret. Everyday goes by and something happens. You fail. You lose. You feel destroyed. You can't take. No one gets it. In your mind you think you shouldn't have to explain it, but you want to talk. To someone, anyone that will listen. You hear in your heart to tell a friend or your parents, but no they don't get it. They just wouldn't understand. Everyone laughs and laughs. At you. Tell a principal you get bullied. The girls say they won't go out with you. Guys yell at you for even asking to play football. I am alone. You always think. Your mind goes wild. Like a rainforest. Tears rush down your face. You cry in a small corner of your room. Plain as jail because your parents even hate you. What's wrong with me? I'm so nice. I'm never mean. Help me lord. I don't want to be praised. Just loved by my peers, by my parents, by anyone. I've been living in a jail cell. For seventeen years, I've gone through this. It's been long enough. Every night I pray for an answer. The next I found out. I can't believe it. That's it? Why do they hate me for that? So I'm black. I didn't think it mattered. My parents adopted me because I thought they liked me. I guess not. They needed someone to bask in their glory. Pathetic. All these years I'd thought that I did something wrong or that I had been mean to someone, but no, I was black. That was it. Now I don't need someone to talk to. I can be my own person. I don't have to try and change for others to like me, because it won't change their minds, just make me feel worse. Now I can at least know that and be able to live my own life. With no one else's permission. Just what I think. Who needs parents. Or friends. I can make new ones. Just one more year and I can go to college and make new friends. Black friends. Who will love me, who will treat me with respect and who will realize that I am worth more than a slab of dirt. I can see it now that people won't change. And that I will find that one person to talk to. That one person that will understand me! I don't need to change. Here I come world, with open eyes and open ears. Sure, don't let me play football. See if I care. Here I come!